I can’t complain about my life at all. I’ve been raised by beautiful people that gave me opportunities some can only wish for. Opportunities that brought me across the ocean living life that one would think is not that different from the life at home. But it actually is and the older I get the more I recognize it.
I’m incredibly fortunate to have a family that I have. The newest part – Kenny’s family has been nothing less than amazing. Made me feel like I was one of them from the very first day I’ve met them. Loving me for who I am and supporting me, Kenny and our sort-of-crazy marriage all the way. Even though giving up my last name (more like what it represents than the actual name) was a hard egg to swallow, I love being one of the Heatons and I would not trade it for the world.
However my first, my oldest, my true family is…is…is… “there-is-no-words-big-enough-to-describe-it” (yes, my heart feels heavy, my brain is foggy and I can barley see what I’m typing, because I’m crying like a baby right now).
My mom Jadranka (aka Just J), my dad Vlado (or Fotko known to many) and my sister Anja (no one believes it, but she IS older) are the the most incredible people in this world. I do not say it enough but I LOVE THEM tremendously and don’t know who I could ever live without them.
Which I actually kind of do. I live 345 days per year (on average) without them. Yes, I hear them often, even see them thanks to FaceTime and other technological advances. And again, I am lucky I get to spend at least few weeks each year with them but it’s just not enough. Every time I hang up the phone or give the “see-you-soon” hug at the airport, leaves a dark hole in my heart, and each time it gets bigger and worse. I thought it will get easier with time, but it’s quite the opposite. The older I get, the longer I’m away from them, the more difficult this amazing opportunity seams.
Am I happy? YES! I love my life. I wake up each morning thinking how fortunate I am, and fall asleep with ease every night. Could my life be even better? Could I be even happier? YES! Happiness and personal success have no limits – how to expand them is another question. There are many hurdlers and walls that are stopping me from spending more time with my Slovenian family and I’m making it my primary goal to taper those down.
So, Mami, Oči, Anja & the rest of my deeply loved Gruden/Perkovac family….Not exactly sure how yet, but I will find a way to be there more – A LOT more!